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Question:
One
of the matters that has profoundly distressed me is the disorder and turbulence
within my mind. I was once firmly committed to the principles of Islam,
observing religious practices with devotion. Approximately three years ago, at
the age of fifteen, I regularly engaged in nightly prayers. Gradually, however,
intrusive and bizarre thoughts regarding Allah the Almighty began to surface
(may Allah forgive me). I found myself contemplating inappropriate
distinctions, such as perceiving Allah as male and myself as female, and from
there, my thoughts would spiral into ever more disturbing territories. Even to
write this fill me with deep shame. At times, the severity of this mental
conflict led me to contemplate suicide; yet the realization that these thoughts
were involuntary restrained me, compelling me instead to seek treatment. Additionally,
I harbor a profound resentment towards my mother; my heart has grown estranged
and embittered toward her. I feel persistently melancholic and disconnected,
unable to engage meaningfully with life. I earnestly desire to transform my
existence for the better. I share these reflections with you in the spirit of
trust and vulnerability. The root of my resentment towards my mother lies in
her behavior: although she is forty years old and has been widowed for a
decade, she perceives even casual smiles from men as signs of romantic
interest. This demeanor causes me profound emotional discomfort.
Answer:
When
the foundational beliefs of a person are corrupted, it leads to the generation
of compulsive doubts and profane thoughts, fostering an involuntary aversion
towards God, the Prophet (P.B.U.H), and the entire edifice of religion. The
deterioration of creed, combined with the consequent torment of the conscience,
produces within the spiritual self an invisible yet festering abscess. This
inner affliction generates an existential restlessness unparalleled even among
the gravest physical illnesses. May Allah the Almighty encompass us all within
His divine protection. In order to liberate oneself from this agonizing
condition, it is prescribed to have a tunic stitched from unbleached khaddar or
coarse cotton. This tunic should exceed the dimensions of the body by one
hand-span and extend down to the ankles, with similarly loose sleeves. In a
completely darkened room (or in dim light if absolute darkness is
unattainable), wear the tunic and walk slowly for fifteen minutes while
continuously reciting:
"Al-ḥamdu lillāhi
rabbil-ʿālamīn;
al-Raḥmāni
al-Raḥīm;
Māliki
yawmi al-dīn."
ٱلْـحَمْدُ
لِلّٰهِ رَبِّ ٱلْعَٰلَمِينَ الرَّحْمَٰنِ الرَّحِيمِ مَٰلِكِ يَوْمِ ٱلدِّينِ
After
fifteen minutes, remove the tunic, fold it carefully, and place it securely in
the same room. This practice should be maintained consistently until the
reformation of belief is achieved. The essential condition is the presence of
darkness.
Khwaja Shamsuddin Azeemi
Nearly three decades ago, the esteemed spiritual scholar and blessed guide, Khwaja Shamsuddin Azeemi (R.A), inaugurated a mission of public service with the objective of liberating humanity from afflictions, psychological distress, and physical ailments. For ten years, he remained in contemplative retreat, silently advancing this sacred commitment to the service of creation (khidmat-e-khalq). As the hearts of the people began turning toward him, he employed the medium of mass communication. In 1969, this initiative was formally introduced to the public through newspapers and spiritual journals. According to conservative estimates, through written correspondence and face-to-face interaction—particularly via national publications and the Roohani Digest—Hazrat Azeemi has extended spiritual guidance and healing to over 1.4 million men and women, addressing intricate personal crises and intractable medical conditions. Today, it is not uncommon that wherever a few individuals gather, and a seemingly insoluble dilemma or incurable illness is mentioned, someone inevitably suggests: “Establish contact with Azeemi Sahib—the matter will be resolved.”
Through the grace of Allah the Almighty, the spiritual affinity with the Prophet (P.B.U.H), and the continued beneficence of the blessed guide, four volumes of Roohani Daak (Spiritual Correspondence) have now been compiled. The first volume is hereby presented to you for contemplation and benefit.
